… a positively adorable, picture-perfect snapshot that seemingly communicates how happy, holly, and jolly I am, surrounded by friends and puppies and desserts.
Don’t get me wrong, I had a blast on Christmas Eve. But this photo doesn’t show you how hard Christmas morning was. I woke up alone. And every silent square inch of my empty house felt like it was caving in on me. I couldn’t breathe. I cried. I felt broken and lost, with most of my life still packed away in boxes, in a storage unit over 200 miles away in Maryland.
Eventually, I pulled it together. I remembered I chose this Christmas, because I bet on myself in the biggest way possible earlier this year. I remembered how full of love my life is. So, I put on Harry Potter. I lit a scented candle. I cleaned my room. And then, later on, I headed to another friend’s house for a warm and joyous Christmas feast with her family.
As I looked in the mirror before I left for Christmas dinner, reflecting on the day, I realized those moments when I break are similar to the ominous storms that roll up the Chesapeake Bay with ferocious speed.
Storms feel like they will never end, but they always do.
You will see blue skies again, because they never left you.
They were always there, above the clouds.
Each of you reading this has weathered your fair share of storms over the past 12 months, including (more than likely) over the past two weeks. So, before you evaluate how you want to approach the starting line facing us all on January 1, 2024, take a moment to celebrate you. Yes, YOU.
Celebrate your storms. Celebrate how far you’ve come. Celebrate how many things you did this year that December 2022 you would have never believed possible. Celebrate the lessons you learned. Celebrate the “failures” that turned out to be blessings or opportunities for growth.
Celebrate the times you were courageous enough to ask for help. Celebrate the mornings you got up and faced the day, even when it felt impossible. Celebrate the days you allowed yourself to rest, because you deserved it. Celebrate the big and small ways you bet on yourself this year, no matter what anyone else said.
I guarantee you, there is no photo you could take or Instagram filter you could use that would adequately capture every dimension of how worthy you are right now of being celebrated.